The title for my blog this time is the title of the song I am currently listening to, it's purely instrumental, but it's techno instrumental, and I love it. I can only take techno for so long, but sometimes I get into those Basshunter moods and I can't stop listening to techno. Speaking of Techno, I love Daft Punk too, just saying.

Well anyway, I actually wanted to write this post for relationship stuff. No, not for me, for others, just some advice.

I know that I have random posts where I complain about being single, and I think everyone goes through that, but then again, I've had 20 years of being single. I have friends who are younger, and they are complaining about being single. Really? Why do we need someone to make ourselves feel significant? Why do we constantly have to compare ourselves to our friends who are in relationships? Unless they're deeply in love, not just lust, it's not going to last, and we are just going to watch them break up and date new people. I know it seems like right now that would never happen, but I've been through high school, I'd know just as well as anyone.

I was quite glad to have never been the friend that constantly had to talk about relationship problems, or brag about this or that with my boyfriend, I got enough of that from all of my friends. Now, I am also a woman, I think there's a different expectation of guys, so I'll address this next part for guys.

My good friend once told me that it was difficult to keep his thoughts pure because the friends he hung out with watched porn, or talked about inappropriate things, made inappropriate jokes all of the time, and it became so very difficult for him, that he stopped going to the school he had a scholarship for, he couldn't take the temptation anymore. I'm very proud of him for doing that, it's not easy by any means. Regardless, I gained from that a sort of understanding.

For guys, if you haven't had sex with a girl by the time you're about...what, a sophomore in high school maybe, then there's something wrong with you. It doesn't have to be extreme, but it seems like with guys and the pressure there, that if you're not dating and banging a girl, you're weird and it's not a good stimulus to have. This is a ridiculous way to think. If you have go get your self-worth from banging a girl and then bragging about "being a man" later, there's something more wrong with you. 

So let me just say this as a shout-out to people out there: don't be in a hurry to date, God will provide someone for you when the time is right. Sure, you'll get depressed, down, dis-spirited, and that's when you need to seek out help the most, because good friends who are godly friends, will tell you that it's okay to wait to date. Just because everyone is doing it, doesn't mean you should jump the bandwagon and join. 

And I'm not just saying this as a bitterness or anything, as much as I desire to have a relationship with a guy, both emotional and physical, I understand that when the time is right, I'll find him. Now, that doesn't mean I can't flirt before, and if I wanted to date for fun, I'd be open to that. However, I would establish that to the best of my ability before dating that person. As it were, I understand the feeling of being left behind everyone in the relationship department, I've been behind everyone for years in that regard, but as my dad says, I'm ahead. Think of it this way, when you finally meet an amazing person you want to actually legit spend time with and be with, you bring with you the emotional baggage you had before you dated them: I have no baggage to bring into a relationship, and that in and of itself is very rare. And if you've kept up with my blogs, you'd know I've not been in short of admirers and guys who wanted to date me, so it's not an issue of there being no one to date.

Anyway, just wanted to say that. Well, ciao.
-Yumi- 

So I really need to study right now, I have (I think) two tests tomorrow (Spanish and Math). But, I need to get my chemistry homework done too, and I really don't want to do any of it. I'm sorta burned out on school, though I'm far from over. I still have...5 tests...no...6 tests to take this week, and I only have 4 classes. Tomorrow I have two, Thursday, I have a test in Psychology, my Lab Final, my last Chemistry test, and an extra ACS test on basic chemistry for extra credit. If I do really well, I can bring my grade up by like, 35 points at the most. It's a 70 question test that is only a positive influence on your grade, and I could REALLY use that right now. I'm a borderline C/B in Chemistry right now. 

The point? I need to study like hell. However, I'm burned out and don't want to study. You know, I even took off for tonight at work, just so I could study and do my homework? Yeah...I really need to get on that. But...I hate studying. Blech. Regardless, I need to. 

On another note, I've been in contact with one of my best friends from Texas...10 years ago basically. It's been over...4 years since I've seen her maybe? Anyway, she started texting me randomly on Saturday past, and it was nice to catch up. I hope that I can see her sometime, I really do miss her, though I don't miss her drama. Lol. Maybe she's grown out of it, who's to know until I'm around her?

Besides all of that, my room is a disaster because I've been so disorganized lately, and, I really need to do laundry, though I did a load recently, which is good. I have started talking to Amos more since that random two months that we didn't really talk. I saw him on Saturday, took him to the movie with me, I also took Michael and Brian. We had a grand old time, and I hope they had fun; sometimes it's hard to tell with those two. I really can't read them as well as I think I can many times. I feel like...they don't want to hurt my feelings? But I think that they fail to realize, I don't really have any feelings that are there to be hurt, so, it doesn't really matter? Anyway, they'll learn with time I suppose.

Oh, Michael asked me what was going on with the youth group of Sunday, and I recall Brian telling me something about Alyssa, but I don't really remember, because while he was talking, Jena and Lacey were also talking to me, so I was half paying attention. I think what he said was something along the lines that (and don't quote me on this) Dennis was teasing Alyssa about her and Michael and being attracted to each other or some other such nonsense, and then Michael through pure happenstance walked over, talked to her, and sat down next to her, which of course set the whole youth group in an uproar about those two. I think that's what it was, though I'm really not sure.

Anyway, that's my little tidbit of update. I really need to get studying, I can't procrastinate as much as I want to. 
Ciao

-Yumi-